Hello...

I know...Its has been a while...But I promised Beth I would post...so here you go. Life is like a roller coaster lately. I keep thinking...It will slow down after this week and then something else piles on to the load. I do NOT understand how we make it through each and every week....wait no I DO...PRAYER...FAITH.....TEARS......PRAYER....FAITH. I had a conversation with my very good friend who has now started working full time, after being a full time mom for 13 years. We were explaining to our husbands that while we do what we do and love our jobs....we hate them to0. We both long to be home...HOME for our children and just home. It truly brings no greater joy in my life than to be there for my children. It literally rips at my soul to miss things. To have Scott filling in where I should be. It is hard being sooooooo tired.....so tired that you tell your kids goodnight and they tuck you into bed. So many pressures from everywhere, people expecting so much. No one even thinks you struggle...EVER! Guess what....we do. We don't have it all together. In our moments by our self we cry....missing so much for things to slow down...enough to smell the roses. I have learned one thing more than ever......I am NOTHING and can accomplish NOTHING without my Heavenly Father. He has made me capable to do things I never would have thought I could do. Realizing that He has asked me to do these things and has given me the opportunity to do these things. So, I have been willing to do these things, and He directs and helps me become what I need to do and be. Therefore when I read this in one of the conference talks.....

He has given me the peace to know this, I have a very strong testimony that my most important calling in life is being a mother and that I SHOULD feel torn, it is what we as women are designed for. SO I am incredibly grateful I have never felt like, despite EVERYTHING I DO SQUEEZE IN, my children are not something I squeeze into my day. I love them with every piece of me and my soul. I do what I do for them and my sweetheart. So now that I have posted....it may be a while again....we are starting track season, baseball season, Miss Orem Season, on and on........Just know I have over 1000 pictures in my camera of our crazy life and all we do.......TOGETHER!!!!!