On the Eighth Day of Thanksgiving

On the Eighth Day of Thanksgiving my Heavenly Father gave to me...
Emma=)

Emma is our youngest, our baby, our Princess, our sister, our daughter. Emma became a meember of our family in  . In August of 2003, Scott and I were doing well. We had things running smoothly, work was good. We had 2 beautiful children. One of each. We had our home and a ward we loved. A great school. I just got my first, payed, dance teaching job and was bouncing off the walls. We had finally broke down and bought the kids a dog. It was the perfect picture.....NOT

Scott would suggest having another baby...I would say things are perfect. I can handle what we have now....Well Christmas rolled around and well needless to say after taking all precautions I began to think I may be pregnant....I went into the Dr. and YUP! 3 MONTHS!....I cried...ALOT!...I can't do this....not now....I can barley handle what I have going on....another baby! What was Heavenly Father thinking!!!!!!
Well the part of the story no one knew about other than Scott and I....Actually I was unaware there was a problem at that time too. I had been struggling with an eating disorder for the past year. I had a distorted self image of myself and battled daily to make it become what I thought would make happier....Well ....Becoming pregnant with Emma saved me. At the time I found out I was pregnant I was down to 90lbs. I had no intention of changing any eating behavior before that moment. I was on a downward spiral to one of those eating disorder case studies. I had a few months of severe depression but had a life changing experience with her pregnancy. Scott and I believe it was Emma's will that she is here. WE HAVE NO DOUBT SHE FOUGHT TO COME HERE AT THAT VERY TIME BECAUSE HER MOM NEEDED HER! She saw her moment and the rrest is history.

If you have had the opportunity to sit with Emma, you have felt the special spirit that resides in her. She has a very unique understanding of things. She understands the soul and grasps things in ways others do not. She sees what is inside. She cares deeply about the things and people she loves. She has always shown extreme care for her little animals, babies and dolls. She treats them with great love. She loves her siblings so very much! Her prayers are a spiritual experience in itself. You would swear as she gives her prayers that the heaven is in the room with you. She thinks and ponders deeply about every word she says and she means them. We love our Emma.

Emma is extremely perceptive to what needs to happen. She has blessed our home in so many ways and could not imagine my life with out her! She looks for  ONLY the joy in life. Is excited about learning all she can. So many times as a toddler she would grab my face and look at me in the eyes, as if to remind me of who I am supposed to be, "You are the best mother in the entire world, I love you"

A day does not go by that I do no thank heaven for her and the incredible spirit she is and pray to be worthy to be her mom. She is an angel sent from above to rescue me and for that among all of her amazing attributes, I am grateful, forever, to my Heavenly Father for Emma.